Surely the worst position to find oneself in is that which our participation is not requested, but mandatory. Culture drives this methodology deep into our subconscious at such a young age. School age children, empowered by no less than righteous indignation, feel trapped in the public school systems across America. Not only is a child forced to appear at school each day, but it is his or her duty to perform to the best of their ability.
By no conscious choice of his own, Todd’s situation had become analogous to this. On all counts, it seemed that he had fallen into this relationship to Todd all too easily. Based on the threats continued in the last two messages, his fears had begun to take hold. It is a marvel how quickly a relationship between two people can change, without the two ever seeing each other face to face. In fact, Todd hard not even been able to respond or acknowledge either of the messages, but he was fairly confident that Cliff could confirm they were received.
Lunch came all too fast that day, as Todd would have felt all too comfortable remaining in his cell for the remainder of the day. However, he knew this was not an option. He would have to claim control of his inner motivator and face the outcome predicated by Cliff’s threats. As he followed his fellow inmates toward the cafeteria, his eyes flitted this way and that, trying to catch a glimpse of Cliff, but failing. He had the eerie feeling that he was being watched.
To be continued…